things are going very, very well. 

time is an odd thing that never seems to pan out the way we suppose it will. it is always moving too fast or too slow, flying by or creeping along. we praise it when it works in our favor and curse it when it doesn't, swearing that next time will be different or last time was better.

there are moments though, when time slowly sneaks away into summer air and takes a rest for a while, leaving the witnesses to soak, absorb and wonder, free from ticking clocks or spinning cogs. moments like floating through warm sea water as it reflects the painted sunset in the sky above. like walking through the avenues of salt lake city, sunlight slipping through the cracks in the roof of wise green leaves overhead. moments like sobbing into your mother's shoulder, sucking in air like its gold and letting thick emotion drip out your eyes, nose, mouth, and heart. i've had a few of those moments in the past few weeks. i've been blessed with those moments.

 

some photos from my latest fish eye film roll. ive been on the mainland for less than two weeks and yet i find that as i scroll through these memories, i ache for the island that stole my heart almost three years ago.

to compensate for my lack of formal literary education this semester, i've been learning new words from a blog called otherwordly. a recent good find is fernweh, which is defined as "wanderlust, a strong desire for or impulse to wander, or, in modern usage, to travel and explore the world." i've caught this bug. i'm itching to dive into the world and stumble my way through somewhere foreign. i'm getting too comfortable. i need to stretch.


some other great words i highly recommend are:
retrouvaille: the joy of meeting or finding someone again after a long separation; rediscovery
euneirophrenia: the peace of mind that comes from having pleasant dreams
adoxography: beautiful writing on a subject of little or no importance
sehnsucht: "the inconsolable longing in the human heart for what we know not what"; a yearning for a far, familiar, non-earthly land one can identify as one's home